I’m fine. That’s what grievers often say when people ask how they’re doing. Except they’re not fine.

Rachel Brougham lived a charmed life. She grew up playing sports in a small town in Michigan. She had great friends, found her dream job, and in 2001, met Colin. They were engaged just six weeks later, had a baby, and eventually moved to Minneapolis.

Things were great until Colin was killed in a cycling accident just a few blocks from home. In that instant, nearly every aspect of Rachel’s life changed.